It's been too long n weary

It has been 4 days since I last wrote. On Saturday, I kind of saw life flicker pass me. I simply have no freaking idea what I wanna major in. If i major in merchadising at least it wouldn't be a waste in Design school. But if I wanna major in Music, then its a different ball game. Man this sucks.
Then there is archery. When I see everyone improving, I just feel so stagnent. Then I blame everything in the world. And suddenly I feel that I haven't blamed myself, the mastermind behind all that is going wrong. I think this is what they mean by the ignorance of Humans.
I was thinking bout this during the last training,
'I feel like I'm trapped under a frozen lake. It seems like evryone is trapped in one of their own. But as I see everyone improve and break free from their icy prison, I feel as if I'm going deeper and deeper into that frozen lake. Its as if I can never run from my icy captor. As I pound hard on the layer of ice above my head, IT becomes thicker and thicker... suffocating me, lingering on me, killing me.'

I wonder how the rest of the world would react to this if they saw this 'poem' of mine... Hahahahah